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Sam as a child was happy & bubbly but always into mischief,she was no angel believe me ha!!.At the age of 15yrs she had met someone a little older than herself, in time they had two children,the relationship itself became a violent one,no matter how much we tried to help Sam she thought she was in love & stayed with him,all the time Sam was being beaten,which half the time we did not know,the only way my sister knew how to protect herself was to fight back. Through out Sam's life,she alway's got into bad relationship's which again ended up violent,she mixed with the wrong crowd's,which sadley she thought her life was nothing & that's when she started to take over dose's. My Mum rang me at work a couple of time's to say Sam had taking tablet's & refused to go to hospital & could i go home cause she would only listen to me, which i did as my sister & i had that something special dont get me wrong we had our arguments but we always made up. Over the 20yrs Sam has tried to take her own life over & over,Sam never got the help she should of got,Sam would only tell people what she wanted them to hear she was very clever as they believed her,& SOME still believe today. Sam was kind,caring,loving & do anything for anybody,finally she had met someone who she loved ,sadley 2wks before the wedding her fiance died of a heart attack & from then on that had tipped her over the edge,she had started drinking,argueing with people who she loved dearly,whatever Sam said we knew deep down she didnt mean it,few weeks before my sister died we had an argument & we had not spoken for those 2wks which even though things were said i missed my sister,the night she did what she did she rang me saying how much she had missed me,that she loved me so much,we were both crying & we said i love you's then the phone went dead....... Thinking back on Sam's life we feel as a family she should of had hospital help,but if you knew Sam she would pick herself back up always laughing,to be honest with you,you thought she was ok but she wasnt! I do feel guilty thinking if we hadnt argued would she be here, it's all if's & but's,but deep down no matter what Sam would of done she would of done it sooner or later & there was nothing that no-one could of done to help her,Sam was like this all through her life,someone had said that myself & another member of the family were responsible for my sister's death,i was really upset & hurt by what they said but at the end of the day i feel sorry for them because they did not know Sam through out her life & how it was dealing with the pain of Sam taking over dose's,getting beaten by partners,drinking,taking drug's,getting into fight's & we have always no matter what been there for Sam,we miss her terribly & if we could turn back time we would but we know nothing would of changed Sam she was her own person,at least now no-one can hurt Sam,she is now at peace. People can say what they want but we know as her family the pain,the tear's we had to go through over the 20 yrs to protect our Sam.....
I have spoken to a couple of member's of the family to give me permission to write which i have written,i just wanted people to know & understand what Sam & us as a family had to go through to try & protect Sam,Sam had a hard life & i hope by writng this you wil understand what Sam had been through... Kerena (Sam's Big Sister)
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